One day i am to die.

one day i am to die,
promise me you won't cry!

all our memories,
are safe in my diaries..

try to ask for them,
as they were my lifetimes gem..

i closed my eyes thinking of you,
i expect you to make all my dreams come true..

i fell in love with the touch of your hand,
want you to put flowers on my grave and make my smile expand..

if ever you want to feel me,
and wish to see me..

just close your eyes,
and feel me and my love that never dies..

one day i am to die,
promise me you won't cry

When you are like me, your life is in only 2 colors …. Black ….. White ….. u dream of colors…. the Technicolor dream ….. but a dream was always only a dream. All else is a rude shock …. Waiting to jar ur emotions (if you have any left) and …. And renders your mind a numb, useless piece of flesh…. And in that state of shock and disbelief you are made to make decisions that affect your whole sense of being… physically and meta-physically….. but still you make them…. And live with them….. and bear them everyday … and you hate yourself everyday for being your own grim reaper….

You are lost in a haze of disillusioned and discomforting thoughts …… your mind drifts from reality to fiction so often you seem to frget where the distinction starts. And then……. Then you forget….. forget how it is to feel ….. how it is to want smthng…. How it is to want to be someone….. how it was when u smiled with your eyes and how it was when you saw the smallest thing in the world and smiled…. U don’t know when it’s gonna end ….